In a rush?!

As I took my daughter to school this morning I was amazed at how everyone around me was in a rush. Jackasses jockeying for position, cutting people off all in a hurry to get to work? Well I for one am never in a hurry to get to work. Don't get me wrong. I love my job and what I do but I don't think RUSH is the word I would use when describing my method of getting to work. This led me to think about why I wasn't in a rush. It seems to me, now that I think of it, that I try never to be in this rush. Did I apply this same thinking to my life and did this contribute to me waiting so long to get married to my sweetie?

Well as I continued my commute I pondered this some more and this is what I came up with. I guess I have always believed there would be more time for me to do everything I needed to get done. What if I am wrong about how much time I have left? Well I am sure everyone thinks of that possibility. At any rate I am glad that my wedding is soon. As it gets closer I am starting to let go of my fears always thinking of the words my sweetie once told me "With us being married it will only get better". YEAH RIGHT. How could it get better! Its damn good now. She was a saleswoman trying to sell me the concept of marriage and I wasn't buying it. I was like the guy at Costco who loves all the food samples but never buys anything. She could have told me anything to try to convince me that marriage would make our life better but I wasn't buying it. Why? I think I thought I had more time. Now that I am in the middle of planning (which in the beginning I said I wanted no part of) I am seeing the wonderful life we will share. Last night we went over to a friends house to sign some documents and he had a guy working for him. We started to talk to this guy and found out he has been engaged for 4 years. As looked at that guy and listened to his story I was really happy that I wasn't that guy. Engaged for 4 years...WOW. I think that at that moment I saw what a shmuck this guy was for doing that to his girl. I also thought of what I shmuck I was for waiting so long. I think that last night I felt bad for making this wonderful woman wait for 7 long years but on the positive side I didn't get engaged and make her wait 4 years.

I don't think that getting married will make me get in a rush but I will certainly look at ways to make our lives better and not hesitate to make that move. Maybe I don't have a lot of time.

During this entire commute I was listening to songs to try to find the perfect wedding song (more about this task later). Although I didn't find one I did run across 2 great songs by Damien Rice "Delicate" and "Volcano".